I don’t think that life is a journey of self discovery. I believe that self discovery is a phase after which you must constantly look for ways to lose yourself. Because your “self” will get in the way of a lot of amazing things. That’s for sure.
Your self will convince you about what you can and cannot do. And you’re gonna believe it because most times it’s right. Your self has all the information, from your day 1!
There’s this thing we all do, you know? Before we even try, we just say “I can’t.” Because for real you know you can’t. It’s like you know your self so well, that even before something starts, you already know how it’s going to end. You’ve been there, done that. It’s like, man I remember the last failure and I’m not about to relive it.
Life is about finding ways to lose that person, that part of you that has all the information; the stuff you’ve failed at, the stuff you’re ashamed of, and all your history… because that person just knows too much; too much to let you live a dream, even for a minute. That person has so much in the archives that s/he always has a good reason why you can’t do what you really want to do.
That person remembers every single defeat graphically.
That person knows your behind-the-scenes and knows that it’s no good.
That person knows that your smiles are just make-up covers.
That person knows what’s in your bank account.
That person knows you’re not all that people think you are.
Lose that person every once in a while. Cause that’s where life happens, where you Run Wild and Carefree and even if it was just five minutes, you know for a fact that “Whoa for one second there, I lived. I freaking lived!!
I don’t know. Maybe dance? Just dance. Sing! A lot! Aloud! Or pick a fight? Yeah, you’ll learn something. Write. Draw. Give. Smile. Give a stranger a compliment. Help an elderly person. Audition for a competition show, just because! Take the bus, or the train. If you’re a Christian, worship! Worship! Worship! Sing your heart..
I can’t tell you how to lose yourself, you already know exactly what you gotta do.
Personally, I tried to talk myself out of publishing this. Better still, my “self” tried talk me out of it. But nah I’m just taking this opportunity to lose that idiot for a bit. Lol.